Another Mother's Day

With my 3rd IVF a month away and Mother's Day hanging over me the last 19 hours, what better time to start a blog...

6 years ago on Mother's Day, I was feeling a bit bummed because it was becoming apparent that my journey to motherhood may not be as easy as I had thought. We had been trying for almost a year with no baby. At this point, I still believed it would happen for us. A couple of tests, maybe a fertility drug here and there, and we would be on our pregnant way. Childless, still hopeful, but sometimes bitter, I sit here on another Mother's Day, bummed and desperately trying to believe it will happen for us this time. We've been through 3 IUIs, 2 IVFs, 1 positive pregnancy test leading to 1 blighted ovum leading to 1 D&C. It's my time. This time is my time.

And, so, the mission of my blog is to feed that belief. The vulnerability of this day made me realize that I can head in many emotional directions as we embark on a new cycle. I can focus on the negative, the "why me" mantra, the anger and frustration. But I know that, if I do want this final attempt to work, the positive attitude, "it's my time" mantra, and the impending joy awaiting me must be my mental focus.

Will you find some sarcasm along the way? Oh, yes, especially when the drugs begin. Feeding the sarcasm a bit helps starve the anger and frustration. Call it passive aggressiveness against my negative emotions. It works for me. I look forward to interaction with others in my situation and to inspiration from others to help me keep believing.

First blog done....